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Broken Generation

Mar 30, 2009

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The moon is so beautiful. It's a big silver dollar, flipped by God. And it landed scarred side up, see? So He made the world.

Harvey Dent A.K.A. Two Face Arkham Asylum: A Serious House on Serious Earth

Recently, I just realized how pessimist I am. I don’t know why, but I think it’s just not just me, it’s not just you, it’s everyone, well, almost. It seems like we all are a generation of skeptical people. This world has turned us down, beat us up, drain our creativity, leaving us with no room to breath, especially when you became grown up. Thus we were somehow breed to have apathy syndrome attach, to be pessimistic and skeptical cuz the world shaped us to be like that. You probably think, what the hell is this guy talking about? Well, let me put it this way, when we were born, we always think that this world is a wondrous place fill with hopes, dream, with many doors of possibilities. It is in some way, but somehow it just ain’t the way this stinkin world works.

Let just say we build our life from others. Just like in a sport game, everyone wants to be the champion, but there can be only one. We all work hard, train hard, pray hard, but not all of us can win. Hell, you know what they say about comin out second place or runner up? It’s the first looser, yes that is nothing more hurt than to know what you can see, what you can smell, but you just can have it. The world that was / were / always be built on the others dream, a boulevard of broken dream.

Remember when we are kids, we probably loves Disney’s picture (well there are some that I still love) that taught you, if you can dream it, you can have it. Well, it just not the way it is right? There are some dreams that no matter how hard you strife, you just can’t have it. Personally, I remember when I was a kid, before I fell in love with Batman, I wanna be a pilot, but I’m wearing a glasses, so I just can’t. It’s probably my fault I know, but compare to my friend, who also wants to be a pilot but he can’t cuz he’s color blind (he’s fault?).

Being a kid, I remember how the world drains us out of our creativity. Just remember how wrong the world works, we were told how to play musical instrument not how to play music, or how when we were kids we were told how to draw the exact way how to draw a mountain, how to draw sun, how to color it in exact way, and to draw it differently is wrong. They kill the creativity in us. I used to hate parent and adult for it, but as time passed (and I also have to be adult, something all of us just can’t avoid) I beginning to understand that it is not their fault, they just like us, victim. We all a victim of a never ending cycle, a system so old, so ancient that so hard to be broke (not impossible, just hard).

Maybe I just realize that in life, we became the thing we hate the most, just like Harvey Dent said in The Dark Knight, “either we die a hero, or we live long enough to see our self became the villain”. How I envy those who become an artist, who could provide a living through his/her passion, to do what they always wanted (no wonder most of us want to be an artist, a celebrity. Even if it’s the fabricated kind of artist or celebrity).

With all of us become jaded, become tired, we need a salvation an escape. Some of us find it in religion (I ain’t touch it cuz I’m not a religious guy) and some of us find it in love (who some called as religion, as the purist thing in this filt world). You know the beautiful think about love? When one love blooms, you gotta understand that one love dies, you know “to love someone doesn’t mean you always have him/her in your arm”? Ouch. Love is blind they said, love is illogical they said, love sucks they said. So is there anything we could rely to (since religion didn’t save me either, so I assume it just as broke as anything else)

That’s why I love Batman, he’s grim, dark, full of hurt but he endures. He taught me that the only way to live in this crazy world is if you force your way into it (while Joker taught me the only way to live in this crazy world is to live without rule). That’s the important thing of having someone you could look up to, an idol, even if s/he is only a fiction character. The other thing that Batman taught me, the power of hope. Yes, a hope is hope, even if it just a hope. Just like in Batman no. 625, "And as the sun, that had been too afraid to show its face in this city, started to turn the black into grey, I smiled. Not out of happiness. But because I knew… that one day, I wouldn't have to do this anymore. One day, I could stop fighting. Because one day… I would win. One day, there will be no pain, no loss, no crime. Because of me, because I fight. For you. One day, I will win."

Or in Superman/Batman no. 4 when Batman mention that Gordon (Jim Gordon) always speak about Gotham which always shadowed by the darkness. Where the shadow is more alive than its people. Jim Gordon speaks as if Gotham is part of Hell. Batman asked him why he didn’t just moved. He already retired, nothing hold him in Gotham. Gordon than said, “There will always a hope Batman”.

I remember Our Lady Peace song “Innocent”, “Oh, Tina’s losing faith in what she knows / Hates her music, hates all of her clothes / Thinks of surgery and a new nose / Every calorie is a war / While she wishes she was a dancer / And that she'd never heard of cancer / She wishes God would give her some answers /And make her feel beautiful …” I think everyone could relate to that song and I think the chorus should’ve consist of question mark and exclamation mark “We are we are all innocent? We are all innocent? We are? We are!” If we survive, if we endure, I believe that we will find a way. No matter how bad the situation is, life taught me that when we reach the bottom, somehow he solution will reveal it self (though I believe that it’s reveal cuz when we got nothing to lose, everything will looks as an opportunity. Hey, there’s nothing left to lose, what do we got to lose right?). So bottom line is, survive no matter how broken this world is, no matter how broken we become. Something good will come out of the most bad thing in life (even living creature shit or feces could be used as a fertilizer).